Pagan in PostChristianity : Autoethnography of manic psychosis with religious experience: autoethnography of manic psychosis with religious experience

By cole, edward, russell, Ph.D.

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Title:	Pagan in PostChristianity : Autoethnography of manic psychosis with religious experience: autoethnography of manic psychosis with religious experience
Author:	cole, edward, russell, Ph.D.
Volume:
Language:	English
Subject:	Non Fiction, Psychology, psychosis
Collections:	Authors Community, Sociology
Historic Publication Date:	2025
Publisher:	self published

Member Page:	edward cole
Citation APA MLA Chicago Russell Cole, P. E. (2025). Pagan in PostChristianity : Autoethnography of manic psychosis with religious experience. Retrieved from http://gutenberg.us/

Description
at the very minimum, this book serves as a phenomenology of psychosis. however, I also hope that the analytical insights that I make in the document provide an innovative pathway for the study of the subjective symptoms of psychosis.

Summary
This is a phenomenology of my experiences during an extended psychotic episode. the document is written as an autoethnography. I relate contents of the phenomenological description with theoretical points made in sociological literature.

Excerpt
Eventually, I found myself cornered, a position where I had to consider the likely impossibility of my ongoing survival. On the verge of accepting death as my fate, I remember contemplating my demise just moments before experiencing exhilaration as I entered a state of dissociation. I was abruptly entranced and began unmindfully marching in figure eights around the concrete floor of my parent’s basement, chanting about a former life. The energy with which I had been infused broke me out of the debilitating stranglehold. For the first time in over a year, I was hopeful. The attitude found expression in the dance and chant that I performed for hours. I spontaneously shouted couplets impressing me as too refined to have been improvised. After I returned from my state of alternate consciousness, it was immediately clear to me that my life was the subject of divine intervention. This decisive juncture in my psychosis marked the start of my religious experience.

Table of Contents
Table of Contents 2 Preface 8 Introduction 14 Ontology 17 Chapter I 19 Psychiatry 19 Madness 22 Chapter II 37 Prodromal 37 Marge 41 Know thyself… 44 Encroachment 47 Figures and Backdrops 48 Social Authorities 49 Severing Ties 52 Paranoia 55 Erratic behavior 56 Chapter III 57 Trip Wire 57 Interpersonal Relationships 59 Token Appearances 59 Mania 60 Breadcrumbs 63 Interviews 63 PTSD 66 Purification Ritual 70 Personality Composite 70 Hannibal 70 Winston 71 Schizoaffective Disorder 71 NPD Diagnosis 74 Dialectical behavioral therapy 75 Analysis: Mental-healthcare diagnostic practices 78 Invocation 82 Intervention 84 Memory House 85 The Lewis Family 86 Sheila 86 Deidra 88 Meaghan 89 Brian 90 Marge 90 Stephan 90 Todd 91 Plea for help 91 ED Therapy 92 Chapter IV 95 Bomb Shelter 97 Celina 97 Spaceship Odysseus 99 Implantation 100 Behavioral Health Ward I 101 Discontent and Negligence 105 Pain and Suffering Journal 108 Regimen 109 Resistance 110 Siren 111 Breakthrough 112 Therapeutic Exercise 113 Pain and Suffering Journal 113 Clairvoyance 114 Valley of Death 115 My Enemies 116 Deadly Persistence 117 Chapter V 118 Communing with the gods 118 We are the Gods. 121 Analysis: System Maturity 122 Analysis: Passage into a Web-of-belief. 122 Analysis: Phases 123 Druids 124 The Contest of Life 125 Aristotelianism synthesized with Naturalism. 125 Nature and Kinds 125 Revelations 126 New Ages 127 Time Space 128 Telepathy 130 Hummingbirds 130 Deification 131 Ascending the Steps 132 Phenomenology in Motion 134 Sacrifice 135 Driver’s License 136 Druid Circle 136 Druid Marriage 137 Athena 138 Pied Piper 138 Harry Potter Children 139 The Pegases 139 Pan and the Pegases 142 Diana 143 Gladiatorial Combat 145 Ritual 147 “…Roger that…” 150 Proconsuls 152 Reincarnation Build up and Break Down 153 Retribution 154 Transmissions 155 Choice 155 Bethlehem 157 Pilgrimage 157 Hypnotic Knots 161 Satan the God 162 Satan, the Sultan 163 Satan the Recluse 164 PsyDrifters 165 Origin Myth of Illuminati 165 Illuminati 168 Harold 171 Vampiracy 171 Marriage 173 Evolutionary Reincarnation Biology 174 Celebrity 175 An Earlier Time 175 Stoning 176 Human Justice 176 Origin Myth of Psychopathy 177 Saturn Fuel Supply 179 Ramesses 180 Game of Houses 181 Placebo 182 Exorcism of Satan 183 Salt Charge 183 Broadcasting from Headquarters 189 Disclosure 190 Ensnarement 191 Entrapment 192 Black Ball 192 Illuminati Reserves 194 Obamas 195 Abstinence 196 Francis 196 Illuminati at Night 197 Opposite Sex 199 Hanging Gardens 202 Incompetence 203 Chapter VI 205 Reintegration Error! Bookmark not defined. Hells for Meaghan Lewis 208 Meaghan Lewis’ Weaker Version of Hell 209 Meaghan Lewis’ Stronger Version of Hell 210 Betrayal 210 Dissipation 211 Reintegration 213 OK Cupid 213 Google Services 214 Conclusion 217 Bibliography 219 Sandbox 220 Southwestern Oregon Community College 220 Black Mold 221 Orientation 221 The Little Dweebs 222 Ghosts from the Past 224 Psychoanalysis 225 Enslavement 225 Interrogation 225 Mind Control 226 A forceful attempt to hypnotize. 228 Pagan Virtue 229 Proof of Polytheism 229 Sidewalks 230 Undercut Overcut 230 A Rounded Childhood 231